
3.30.2009
sometimes im really tired............................ wkdays i give up my time for studies.... wkend one day for dear and another day for family.... when do i hv the time to take a good rest?? as in really slp the whole day or read my favourite book.... even during the holidays i still need to work and get bz with my camps... i really asking for it sia.... i wish that one day i would be able to switch off my phone and hv some quiet time alone.... but the over reliance on my phone has prevented me from being isolated... i always reply as soon as possible as if everything is v urgent... im probably a victim of fast and instantaneous communications.. wld prefer the days whr letters are used and u hv to walk an hour to a public phone (nt as if i hv been in that era haha) at least i wld think that 3 yrs is ultra short... nw 1 day already seems v long for a reply to come back....
haix i really dunno my mood swings were so bad during pms.... super duper bad........ i closed my eyes on the train and my tears juz dropped (probably due to relieving unhappiness) uncontrallably... den while walking home, i am happy bcoz of the starry nights... and i flared at my mum when she returned home from genting.... omg lor.... and the worse part is wat?? i complained to my bf and he juz say 'get used to it... u still nt used to it meh?' omg la... i was expecting some consolation and i got this -_- haix...
2 more wks to exams and i haven revise!!! but on the optimistic side... i only hv 3 core papers and 2 electives... my electives more or less done le... coz there was a quiz... den i usually need like 3 full days to finish 1 core paper... and i stil gt 14 days left... haha... shd be enough la...... HAHA
i realised that u hardly gave me encouragement with words... probably with actions... but i dun really get to see u often la.... i've been rather generous with praises and encouragement for u... but whr is mine when i needed it so badly?? wat if one day i cant get over this hurdle?? when i asked if i am included in the plan for ur future? u rolled ur eyes... obviously i noe the answer alr but which girl doesnt like to hear those words rite?? why isit that i hv to always ask den u will say?? isit really that hard to say abit more of such stuffs?? i really liked what u did at the lift.. juz a small pat on my head and say 'yao hao hao du shu o' already made my heart smiled... haix................................................ cant wait for ur NS to end... though live will nv return to the way i like... but i will adjust soon...
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3/30/2009