
8.20.2006

Ouch* pain sia
had this headache since yesterday... dunno isit weather, motion sickness(frm previous day), eyesight or stress... i oso tot it could be tumour or wat la... but dun think so... its not pain until rolling on e floor de... haix... made me cannot concentrate on LaspBus... so now i still left 2 more chaps to revise... kinda out of schedule but i guess still can catch up if im fine tmr... haix... den my painkiller for e jaw pain oso no use le... it hurts like hell la... still dunno muz tahan until when but i think at least 2 more wks ba... my this jaw pain for like almost 2 mths le la... how much worst can it be... im totally not nervous abt e washing procedure la... coz i noe tts e only thing tt can help me le... juz duno wat will be e consequences of it... haix... den juz now my chest thr feels weird, like cannot breathe liddat... den like vomit oso... dunno wat isit la... kinda freakin' me out... haix...
sometimes i wonder am i a burden to my family, frenz and dear... too high maintenance le... to many probs le... i juz keep giving probs to them la... haix... sometimes i really tot of leaving dear lor... coz i scared one day i hv to leave the world den he will be v sad le... long pain is worst den short pain ba... haix... but i she bu de leh... wish he can be thr to go thru everything with me... im so selfish la.... wat shd i do? haix...
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8/20/2006