
7.30.2006

A Whole New Start
as u said, i better write my feelings here... so here i am... haha... actually told u alot of stuffs le... but still wanna record e happy things today... at first i dread meeting u today... coz after wat u said for e past few days... i roughly noe wat to expect today... den i keep thinking shd we go play den talk or talk den play(which i nv tot would be possible)... in e end decided to play first in case its e last time we would ever be together... lucky u didnt sound unhappy... in e end we went to play... it was damn fun la... juz like how we're always together... but i was still worried coz i really dun want e thing to happen... everything was fine until on e escalator and u said those stuffs to me... i was expecting it already... tried to handle it as best as i could... but really feel v luan... felt like escaping reality... haix.. isit a sign tt its e end for us or is it gonna be a new beginning?... was so happy tt u decided not to say it... i really will breakdown if it happened la... when u said tt u didnt say it bcoz u realised tt u still like me... it gave me hope again... i was so damn happy la... =D haha... DEAR I LOVE YOU~ really nv felt more happy than tt u noe... i guess it shows its a new beginning for us again... well we had a talk after tt... told u my troubles... u asked me qn... suddenly feel more relaxed... now i dun need to worry abt our relationship and try to focus on my work... really hope u didnt say those things to make me focus on my work... but still i was v happy la =) haha... and thanks for coming home with me... i noe it was v troublesome... always felt bad when u come home with me but also feel v happy... v contradicting rite?... im always doing tt... haix... i nv blame u for thinking of breaking u noe... i noe its v tring to be with me... i ask u to do alot of things... and when u dun do it i will make u feel like u r v lan... haix... sorry leh... u always say its not my fault... but i noe everything started bcoz of me... if i nv complained den maybe none of this would hv happened ba... dear... i am gonna be a nuisance until e end of e exams... and seriously im gonna need ur support to survive thru this... will u be thr for me?... i noe i may be asking too much but can u be strong and support me?... aiya... here i am again... asking smth from u... haix... shd i post this?... i dunno leh... wat shd i do? hope nth changes after u read this... scared u will be angry with smth i wrote
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7/30/2006