4.03.2006
shity day
i'll make it short cos i hurt my third finger today... and it hurts to type... i am so damn dumb la... i wanted to open the window but i pushed too hard... in the end i clamped my finger in between the window pane and the grill... fingernail cracked into my flesh... lucky nv bleed... told myself not to cry... coz i noe no one will console me bcoz it does not bleed... as i expected... no one cared... my mum still say im lazy... dunno y... put a plaster den went to sleep.... desmond called me at ard 4.30 den i realised that it was raining outside.... the lightning and thunder went on continuously for abt 20 mins.... i was so freaked out.... i still need to go and take in the cloths... which is so heavy and i had to tiptoed alot... lucky nv fall down... everything was wet but i didnt bother to clean it... i was way too freaked out... i called dear and hoped he could help me... BUT... he juz said he was still eating and didnt care much... so much for being encouraging... so i had to cover myself with the blanket and try to think of smth to help myself... and i finally tot of it.... i went to on the lights and my com... it kinda distracted me frm the rain ouside... and i played pangya... my parents came back at 9 and my sis came back at 10.... aren't they early?! so i had to get my own dinner.... was kinda hoping to hear dear's voice so he could anwei me... and now he went to sleep knowing that im am in a bad mood... though i told him everything on msn... couldn't he even give me a call to say smth nice?... haiz... suan le... wake up and its gonna be a new day.... back to my home alone life.... sobx
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4/03/2006
Dear
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